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"Out of the depths I cry to you, Oh Lord." Psalm 130:1

I love King David and how he wrote. He was a man after God's own heart (Acts 13:22). That word "depths" is a verb in its original use. It means to "be deep" and is compared to that of an ocean, a valley, or yes, even a pit. Because it is a verb, it is specifying behavior here and not a location. In other words, David was "being a valley" in God's presence. He didn't just go there....oh no...HE BECAME THAT DEEP, DARK, DREADFUL PLACE.

Ahhh the pit. Ever been there? I believe some of us may have our own personal room there, like a hotel..."Hotel Pit." Not to boast, trust me, but I have been to this place so many times that I have a king-sized bed with a nightstand and my Bible there. This pit is only known by few who dare to allow themselves to "be deep" in God's presence. It is by far--a. very. low. place. (emphasis applied here). This is why I say no boasting can parade here. Who wants to be in this place? I sure don't!!! But I understand now that it is a part of this walk with the Lord, for whom He uses, He also abases. (1 Corinthians 1:29-31) If I want His DEEP, I must decrease, and He must increase (John 3:30). The pit is part of that process.

The pit can sneak up at any given time on any given day. It could be the bills, the kids, the job, the husband. Or it could be the vicissitudes of life. Sometimes I just don't know what it is..but my tears are falling so fast that I have to hide my pain lest I wake anyone up. So I muffle my cries in my pillow...so no one can hear me. But God hears me. He knows. He is there.

"Where can I run from your presence? Where can I flee from your spirit? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there."

Do these moments of despair make me a weak-willed Christian? If it does, it is quite alright with me. For each time I have made a personal visit to this depth, the Lord has always been right there with me. Is there something that has you in a dark, empty place? I understand. And all I can say is rather than feel like you are being punished, take this journey as a part of life that we are privileged to have. The Lord will hold us up when we give him our burdens in that place. (Psalm 22 speaks of this)

I dont want to tell you to enjoy this place--of course not--I speak to those that understand that the "hole in the heart" feeling is not enjoyable! But the one that HOLDS our heart is right there. Call His Name. No darkness is dark to Him---He is there to lead us to His marvelous light. He blows Motel 8 out of the water--because He doesn't just "leave a light on for us." He IS THE LIGHT for us. God bless you and be encouraged.

"...even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you." Psalm 139:12